Say as You Think, and Speak it From Your Soul.

Worst Day

2009-06-29T09:25:00.001-07:00

I woke up at 7am after having 4hours of sleep to go to the doctor, where i rushed allll the way there to sit in the office for 50minutes after my acutal appointment time, sat there for literaly 2minutes checked out, then almosst got SMASHED by a semi truck on BOTH SIDES of my car becuase someone cut me off in the middle of a really busy CUNSTRUCTION ZONE then on my way home i thought i was being tailgated so i sped up to freaking pass the car in front of me and right before i put on my blinker I SEE BLINKING LIGHTS BEHIND ME BECAUSE IT WAS A FREAKING UNDERCOVER COP CAR, who charged me $144.00. Then on my final way home I almost hit a cat and ANOTHER PERSON cut me off and i swerved.. I get home and my freaked when i told her about my ticket then cried when i told her I almost died by 3cars at once all because of one freaking person cutting me off. And now she wants me to SET A COURT DATE to testify my why i was speeding because she says half the time cops arent even there and its usually dismissed. And with my freaking luck he'll be there and say i was goign 80 and cut him off or something stupid. So, HOORARY FOR AWESOMENESS. Not to mention i owe my mom money for my ticket disaster in Naples in may and my upcoming trip to Kansas to see Shayla.

God I neeed to get a job or start selling meth. Ugh.

Worst Day

2009-06-29T09:25:00.000-07:00

Mike.

2009-06-17T22:13:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend Mike, he's possibly the most amazing person in the world. He makes me really happy. He's adorable in every way. I met him really randomly, through Chelsea all because she FORCED me to go allllll the way to Cape Coral when I reeeeally didn't want to, and I was sitting on Nico's couch sulking because I didn't really care for being there, then all the sudden this gorgeous kid in a beanie walks in and swept me off my feet. We talked non stop for like 3weeks everyday, then we became an item. It was one of the best desicions I've ever made. That sounds cheesey, I know but it's the truth and there's no hidding from the turth. He's indcredbile and I love him a lot. He's one of the few that deals with me and my weird ways and constant rambling about nothing. I dont know how he does it, I'd kill myself if I were him, because I know I'm strang and obnoxious. But, these are all reasons why I'm keeping him forever.

Epidemic.

2009-06-17T12:21:00.000-07:00

Chelsea is my child this week, she's lived with me everyday since like last Wednesday. I feed her, dress her, do her laundry, take her to work/pick her up and tell her dirty fairtales till she falls asleep. It's quiet cute. I love her.

Ton 'Oh Pictures.

2009-06-15T11:15:00.000-07:00

I've taken a million, thousand photos in the past month and couple weeks and havent posted any, so here there they and this only half of them.

Crazy Larry.

2009-06-15T10:44:00.001-07:00

Everytime I go to downtown Fort Myers with Chelsea, we ALWAYS meet some really crazy people. I dont understand.

Yesterday, we went downtown because we were bored, so we ran around for like and hour taking pictures at eveything and everyone and we got tired and really hot so we went into Starbucks to relax and get a drink, and we're in there for like 10minutes and all the sudden this reeeally old, tall man comes in and we both start like laughing and laughing because he's wearing a hat with huge ass eagle feathers and leather indian vest, and boots with spurs and has weird rings and earings. Then he was like HEY BABY GIRLS, HOW ARE YOU GORGEOUS PEOPLE? And starts talking to us about his weird ex-wife and his ADDICTION TO BEAUTIFUL WEMAN and how his pet wolf died last week, and like started SINGING US JOHN LENNON AND JAMES TAYLOR SONGS THAT HE BARLEY KNEW THE WORDS TOO. He invited us to come back to his house and for Chelsea to sit on his lap. Though they we're amazing offeres, we declined for the sake of not getting raped and killed by his other pet wolf that still remains alive.

Downtown Fort Myers.

2009-06-15T10:44:00.000-07:00

Obsession.

2009-05-26T20:10:00.000-07:00

Most amazing Albums ever. I can't stop listening to them.

Weeks.

2009-05-24T23:25:00.000-07:00

So much has happened in the past two weeks.

1. Panic attacks.

2. Two traffic tickets.

3. Twister is only fun to play with when baby oil is involved.

4. Why pay for cupcakes when you can just eat them?

5. I SAW MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER, ELIZABETH.

6. My boyfriend keeps getting more amazing.

7. Four days with Chelsea Chavis are the greatest of days.

8. I love Shayla more everytime I see her.

9. Bankruptcy at age 18, isn't so great.

10. Redbull keeps me alive.

Chelsea

2009-05-07T23:22:00.000-07:00

Chelsea and I do amazing things when together.

Pudding.

2009-05-05T19:15:00.001-07:00

It fixes all problems, always. Having truck loads of this stuff would be a dream come true.

Panic!

2009-05-05T18:36:00.000-07:00

I have more panic attacks in a day then most people do in a life time.

I can't take it anymore. I'm going insane.

Weekend.

2009-05-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

This weekend was super amazing. I spent a ton of time with my insane older sister Brandi, she's just as spastic and loud as me, maybe more. We went to Naples and went to this AMAZING Andy Warhol art exhibit thing and got super lost and toook a thousand pictures along the way.

I was with my lovers Chelsea and Denver alll weekend. They're amazing. They stole me a sausage, wrote me a poem and caught it on fire, and made me weird plant men. We ran around downtown and met a a group of crackheads(literaly) and took a thousand more pictures. I saw my other love Bosak, I passed out on his bed while he talked and watched Revenge of the Nerds.

Sunday, I spent the day with my boyfriend Mike. We ran around Naples all day, people watching and laughing at things only we thought was funny. I mostly harassed him with my constant rambling and spastic driving all day long. We saw a movie but I fell asleep after like a second into it. I had so much fun this weekend. I want more days like these. Most Fun I've had in a while.

Ugh.

2009-04-29T11:14:00.000-07:00

I hate not having a backbone.

I have a disease where I can't say "no" to anything, and it usually always leads to no good in the end. Yay.

Interstates and Jewish Debates.

2009-04-28T21:02:00.000-07:00

This weekend I've come to realize a few things, that will help my in my everyday life;

1. Never go on interstate for the first time without a GPS and person other than yourself that has the worlds worst sense of direction, and make sure you know where the crap your going being entering an interstate or else your screwed for an hour and a half.

2. Chelsea and I have Dude-Bro radar.

3. Nobody understands that Jewish is both a religion AND race.

4. I make strange noises when with Chelsea.

5. Never piss of a black lady at a gas station.

Aggravation.

2009-04-28T20:42:00.000-07:00

I find it annoying that when you finally think everything in your life is going amazingly, then all the sudden there's something or someone there to mess it up. Someone who you know is only being nice to you because they think if they keep being nice they might be able to get something out of you, when really all you want to do is tell them off and let them know what an asshole they really are. Because you know that their real intentions aren't to hang out with you because they miss the friendship you had together, it's to see how far you'll let them go, how much they can take from you before you realize what their doing. And even though as much as you might be annoyed with that person, you wont ever have the heart or guts to stand up to them. To tell them they've blown you off and hurt you too many times to even care about them anymore. But at the same time standing up to them seems impossible, so you go along with it anyways when you know it's outcome wont be so great.

Edit > Undo > Delete.

2009-04-23T20:55:00.000-07:00

I wish life was like a word processor, on a computer. Whenever you do or say something that you know should'nt have, but did it anyways and never realized how stupid and foolish you were being, till after the fact, you could have the chance to click the "Edit > Undo" button and everything you just screwed up would no longer exist and you could start a clean slate.

Oh how amazing that would be.

Word Vomit.

2009-04-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

I've realized that I talk to myself out loud more than I do to actual people. That sounds strange, but whatever. Most people think I'm odd because, I'll be in line paying for something at the gas station or whever I am at the time and I'll just start laughing really loudly because I'll have thought of or just seen something that reminds me of something, or I'll say something that I know is extremly clever and witty to person standing next to me and they'll just stare at me like I'm a crazy person. Even though, I know they know that what I just said was in fact quite hilarious, they just didn't want to admit that my imature humor was amazingly funny at that moment.

Though, I may be quite witty I know that I'm really obnoxious and that my filtering system when speaking to other people is non-existant, so I've decided that if I had a Flux Capacitor, It could help me travel back in time and re-visit all the times I made a complete idiot out of myself. Until then, I'll keep rambling about nothing out loud. Maybe some day someone will understand it and laugh with me, not at me. Hah.

Justin Bosak.

2009-04-20T09:49:00.000-07:00

Bosak. I love you a lot.

We talk constantly, he's the brother I've never had and the best lover I'll ever have.

Our love is strange. We get into a fight almost daily, about absoulutely nothing. We have sick demented humor that only we think is funny. He's the only person other than Elizabeth that fully understands all of my really strange quirks and the only person who actualy understnds my movie refrences. He's saved me from being stalked many of times. He taught me the important things in life like, how to play 6 Degrees of Kevin Bacon and every dirty joke I know. Without those things, my life wouldn't be the same.

Procrastinators; Leaders of Tomorrow.

2009-04-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I officaly, have 31 days to finish up my senior year. Why so soon? Because in order for me to see my bestfriend Elizabeth, in the second week of May for a whole week I need have completed everything. It's killing me. I seriously have no idea at all how I'm going to do it all, I don't even know where to start. Maybe I should start by not posting blogs when I should be taking exams and writing essasys?

I can't help it really. Procrastination runs through my veins. I blame it for putting me behind in school all these months and making me write this blog right now.

Well, I'm off to go read things I'll never remember. So I can see my lover in a another state. Until then, I'll be going mentally insane.

Productivity.

2009-04-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

This weekend has been expectionally boring and unventful. But, on the bright side I've become really good friends with Nyquil and gained a lot of sleep. Which I needed because I sleep like 14hours a week, or less. Sometimes I like doing nothing other than sleeping and watching movies for days at a time. Needless to say, the only productive thing I've done all weekend is edit pictures and download amazing music.

The World Spins Madly On.

2009-04-15T22:52:00.000-07:00

Growing up scares me. Everyday I get closer and closer to living life on my own, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. All of my priorities are out of sorts and I'm having trouble keeping everything in balance. I can slowly feel everything getting out of control, and I'm trying to put a stop to it before it gets to be too much to handle and I seriously start regretting things.

Liz Muffin.

2009-04-14T07:50:00.000-07:00

Elizabeth Michelle Mahoney; You're my best friend in the whole entire world, I love you to death. I've known you since the 8th grade and you've always been an amazing friend. Never once have you let me down. You're one of the most loyal people I know and always there when I need you. We've been through so much, and I'm glad that I have you to depend on. You're the only person who really understands me and knows what I'm thinking before I say it. You know more about me than I do myself. Some of the stupidest things I've ever done have been with you, like the time we decided it would be really fun to run around your neighborhood in our underwear at 10 o'clock at night or our three year prank calling phase. I expericed a lot of "first's" with you, like the first time I ever went on a plane was to see you for Christmas, and the first time I was ever in a car crash was with you, when you smashed my mother's van. You taught me it's okay to be slightly physco and not worry about what other people think. Even your family has always been there for me and treated me like their own. Back when we used to car pool everyday and I would spend my Saturdays going to your soccer games to watch you never play soccer and just make fun of the people on the other team. You're the greatest person I know, and no matter how far apart we may be, just know I'm never going anywhere. I miss you a lot, and I love you tons.

Letting Off the Happiness.

2009-04-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

I got a new puppy this weekend, his name is Jett Jackson. You know, after the Dinsey Chanel show "The famous Jett Jackson". Hah. My dad named him Jett, because he's "jett black", (note; my dad isn't very creative) and when he told me what he named him I was like, "DAD, his middle name must be Jackson. Don't ask questions, it just needs to be done." I told him why, he laughed and agreed. So now my puppy has an awesome name and I'm quite thrilled.

In other news, this weekend was pretty fun. Minus me being really sick and not being able to much. Also, Chelsea and Bosak are my favorite people for entertainment.

First Time for Everything.

2009-04-13T21:34:00.000-07:00

This is my first post in my blog, beacause I was too lazy to make one because it's a lot of effort to make one, so I had Bosak make one for me because LiveJournal SUCKS and I was constantly having the urge to punch it in the face. It takes forever to load, and it's really annoying and ugly.

Anyways, this past week kind of sucked. I was deathly sick all week, which made my weekend crappy because I was too tired and sick to do much of anything. Yesterday was really fun though, minus it being a holiday. I hate the holidays.